lifestyle newborn session | corpus christi photographer
I had a beautiful family session with Valerie and her baby boy. He was absolutely adorable and had the cutest chunky cheeks. I love seeing moms light up when they spend time with their little ones, and Valerie was gushing about her boy!
When I was nearing the end of my pregnancy, people were constantly asking me "Are you ready?" I would always naively reply back with a self-assured "yes" and gush about how excited I was to finally meet my little boy. Even though my pregnancy came as an early surprise, I had met the love of my life and felt so lucky to share this miracle with him. We spent hours putting his nursery together, my Pinterest board was chock full of helpful articles, and I became obsessed with buying everything from my registries. I was ready to begin this life-altering journey and enter the realm of motherhood.
I remember what a heavy presence my son had that first night we stayed at the hospital and how mesmerized I was watching him breathe in his little plastic bin. I refused to have him sent to the nursery, even after my nurse told me I should rest. I didn't want him out of my sight or to miss a single moment. My heart was so full of love. I had all the confidence in the world.
Try as I might, my first month of taking care of a helpless human being did not go as planned and turned into the scariest and most emotional period of my life thus far. The confidence I had gained over the last 9 months was beginning to wither away as I tried my hardest to endlessly console my hungry, crying baby. Even to this day, when Angel cries, there is a definitive signal in my body that triggers utter panic and turns me into a nervous wreck. The only difference now is that I've learned how to control it over time. Keeping your cool with a fussy child is not for the faint of heart.
Breastfeeding proved to be my greatest challenge though. No amount of skin-to-skin contact or attempted latches seemed to stimulate my supply. After a week of hysteria, Angel developed jaundice and was recommended formula. While at my wits end with a low milk supply, I did what I was conditioned to believe was vile and I fed him formula. As his crying ceased and comfort took him over, I cried my eyes out as he filled his little belly. I was hysterical, and I still don't know whether it was because I fed him formula when it was my plan to strictly breastfeed or because I was just so happy to finally be able to give him what he needed.
At that moment, I decided that I would do anything to keep him this happy, even if it meant feeding him formula. I still continue to pump what little milk I can to this day while supplementing with formula...what motherhood comes down to is choosing what you believe is best for your child...we all share the same purpose of feeding our children and raising them to be healthy. No mother should ever have a reason to doubt themselves or feel guilty for that. It took me so long to accept that and I wish I had sooner...
As traumatized as I should be from giving birth, enduring the all too familiar (and constant) shrieks of a newborn, and basically having my life turned upside down, I would still do it all over again. And that is what I find to be the most beautiful part of motherhood. We experience so much pain and battle this myriad of complex emotions all for the sake of our bundle of joy. The light and love they possess over shadows our darkest and scariest moments. And with each passing day, it gets so much easier. With each smile he flashes you and new baby sound he makes, your confidence will regrow. I still stare at him the same way I did that first night at the hospital and I don't think that will ever change. Motherhood has been the most cathartic and rewarding rite of passage I have ever experienced.
Its always wonderful to sit down and share experiences with other mothers. Valerie shared about our time together during our session and her the experience of her precious memories:
In a social media world filled with blurry selfies and Instagram filters, having a professional take pictures of your family with the love and care that Kerlyn possesses is a blessing. When pictures these days are so disposable, she has the ability to capture and create beautiful, frame worthy photographs that a family can cherish for generations. Her style is so organic and elegant. She easily captures the beauty of the human spirit. Not only is she incredibly talented behind the lens, she has a very warm and friendly presence that always makes working with her comfortable and easy. She opens up to you and shows genuine care in your life story. Her adorable son, Kane, tagged along with her during our Motherhood session this past week and it was so nice to be able to spend time with another momma. She was so patient and professional, even with a curious toddler running around and a fussy newborn to photograph. This is my second time working with Kerlyn. She did a maternity session with my husband and I two weeks before our son's due date and the photos came out beautifully. Waiting to see her images again this time is like waiting to open presents on Christmas morning! I will be happy to work with her again in the future.